|Be at peace
God doesn’t create a hole in your heart as unimaginably big as yours must be that he doesn’t allow you to ultimately fill with something else. Although the hurt will never disappear, it will grow to be more bearable and quietly become a part of who you are. You will see other children, and their parents, and sunsets and rain and quiet moments more deeply than the rest of us will ever know. I know you would trade it all for Alexander back, but this is the silver lining in your now very dark cloud. Let it be a legacy he would be proud of. Trust in God and be at peace.